Duane Chapman lost his wife, Beth, back in June when she died after a brave and public battle with cancer.
She was 51 years old.
The veteran reality star made it clear at the time that he was during a lot of pain which he would wish an extended time to even start moving on…
… and now Duane has made that clear once more during a new and candid interview.
“I are going to be glad when this year over,” the famoous bounty hunter just told Radar Online during a phone interview from his Colorado home, adding of whay he’s also NOT looking forward to the top of the year:
“I’m trying to carry the vacation traditions. Beth was very traditional and that i want to carry those traditions as we did when Beth was here.”
It makes perfect sense that calendar milestones like this is able to be especially difficult for Chapman, who openly mourned Beth on what would are her 52nd birthday
Chapman went on to explained that when Beth was alive, “it was mandatory” for all their chikdren to return home for Christmas, but this year, “that’s not getting to happen.”
As a result, he won’t have a robust network reception during what's meant to be special family time.
“Beth was the punisher within the family and that they know their dad may be a softy,” he tells Radar.
“So, tons of the youngsters aren’t coming this year. They’re like ‘Dad, we are getting to do our own thing.’ I’m like ‘Okay, whatever.’ So that’s a touch sad. I’ll mostly be alone.”
Duane, who confessed within the past to having suicidal thoughts shortly after Beth died, is now trying to shift his focus from the private to the professional.
The reality star star says he spends most of his days that specialize in his new show, Dogs favorite, to distract himself from the loss of his soulmate.
“I’m really counting on Season 2 after the vacations,” Chapman explains.
“I’m hoping for the simplest. i used to be watching mugshots and lecture the mugshots and saying you recognize ‘You better enjoy your freedom immediately because I’m getting to tell you something: wait until you get a load of Dog without Beth.'”
At this, Radar notes, Duane started “choking up.”
“Catching the bad guys quite keeps my mind off of stuff. But I desire doing something worthy in life to stay going.
“I feel quite empty without putting a number of them really bad bastards in jail.”
Hey, also need a purpose, right?
As for his psychological state these days? Duane says it’s been a struggle, but he not has thoughts of killing himself.
‘Allegedly time heals all wounds, but if I start brooding about it, then i'm going back to the first,” he laments.
“I wont to think needless to say there's a heaven. I’m unsure anymore. If there was, Beth would ask God to letting her come for just a moment.
“And so i do know there's a God needless to say. But I don’t realize heaven. I hope to God there's and that i can see her again. I’m browsing that immediately.”